Loser!

And just when I thought

Life could not have been better

All I've found in this life

Crashes down to my feet!

I realise that all along

I've been wrong

Not right for a single moment

Still fighting to make it right!

I'm a loser, loosing is all that I do

After all this time I come to realise the truth

Darkness is covering me now

Black is all I see around me!

Smile seems to me

Just a gesture

A necessary process

To not let anyone know what I feel!

So here I go, down the rainy road

To somewhere I've never known
Pouring over myself the darkness of my mind

I'm now walking alone!

ME AgaINst tHe woRLd

Look at me

I'm standing all alone

Having no one by my side

But still fighting the world

Fighting to reach to someone

Who will Fight by my side

And who would love me so much

That she'd fight the world if i say

But sometimes I think

This fight needs to end

Cause engaged in this fight

I've never found a real friend

Why is it taking too long

Too long for me to keep holding on

I guess i'm done with Fights

Its my time now to be gone

To be Gone from the world

And never looking back

Still not finding the one

For whom I kept Fighting on!

Screaming Out

This is me you see

Just a confused brat

Trying to be something

And losing everything for that!

Locking up my mind

I scream loudly inside

The calmness you see

Is just a storm waiting to happen

Thousand blasts occur within me

But I remain silent

Just gathering bitter times

Life and destiny is giving

Not all stories are sweet

Mine is Pathetic

Cause i find myself undone

I find myself screaming

Screaming hard to break the silence

To prove my existence

That ceased to you

For your self-obsession!

Emptyness!

All my life comes to a pause

A blank moment

where i stand alone with only

My memories by my side

I stopped to realise that i'm living

I'm not goneI'm just enjoying me!!!!!

what for all these times I couldn't be!

These empty spaces around

Are not urging me to fill themselves up anymore

I find peace in lonelyness now

Tears dont any more make me sore

Cause i've seen changes happen

Changes that took u away from me

Changes that made u different

But I liked u the way u used to be!

So I dive in the sea of emptiness

Still heading to nowhere

And I don't hope someone to find me

Cause I love this emptyness!!

The observer in a crowded city

I live in a city

I live amongst a million people

Everyday I watch thousands of them

Some known and some unknown faces

In some little or well known places

Some laugh, some cry

But they all pass byAnd I love to watch them Closely

I see a blind man waiting forA helping hand to cross the road

I see couples holding hands and walking

They are mad(sorry made) for each other, I suppose

I see a girl freshly heart-broken

Trying to stop her tears in a crowded train

Holding her head , covering her face

Trying hard to forget the pain

I see people being fooled

I see people making a fool

I see people laughing I see people loosing their cool

As my mind Is ever open

I see people differently

In their joy or pain

I see people sleeping

I see people Awake

I watch the humanity

This observer's eyes are always open!

This is my sweet recollection of thoughts while travelling in the city of Joy, Calcutta, India!